What a time of the year! It's always fun to celebrate Christmas with my family. But what's even better is that I'm now one year older! It's crazy to think that I'm so close to being an adult, but it's so far away! I'll still be the same, believe me :) Still the adorable amazing girl everyone knows me as :)
This brings back memories of this past February... The ACL tear! February 18th, 2013 - the game against Xenia, where I possibly had the most life changing experience of my young life! As I lay on the floor, I could hear the pounding footsteps of those people who rushed to help me. Excruciating pain was coursing through my knees, and tears rushed down from my face. It wasn't because of the pain, because it did hurt! But I think I cried most for the fact that I had failed myself. I can't really explain it, other than I was so upset that I had let myself slip into this predicament! But- There I lay, in so much pain and sadness. Here,in the present, I am much stronger, physically, and spiritually! So much good can come of something that seems so horrible!
March 25th, 2013- The surgery! I was terrified, because I had never had something like that happen to me before! I prayed, I cried, I slept rather poorly, and I was shown so much love that I'm not sure why I was even scared! I can remember, right before they put me under, I felt this immense rush of love and care, and I knew then that everything would be ok, that I could trust my surgeon. The best part? Waking up :) I remember looking like a little baby, wrapped in so many blankets to keep me warm :) (I get really cold really easily)
July 2013- Girls Camp and Youth Conference. Ahhhh the memories that I have from Kirtland and Palmyra! Two of my most favorite summer activities! So much friendship and familiarity! The people that you meet will always stick with you, even after you move! It was wonderful to be with so many friends and so many of those who will be with me forever. There, I was among friends. Here, I learned that people are watching you, wanting to follow how you lead, and hopefully, I can lead people in the right way!
August 7-18, 2013- The Great RV Trip :D Haha So many fun memories and so many things that I learned! To see about our trip, follow this link : The Trip of the Summer :) There, I was just on a trip, away from the hardships that life brought. Here, I know that I'm not the person I thought I was.
School started late August. The first few weeks were rough! I was alone, hardly anyone talked to me, and I hardly talked to anyone. I was quiet, shy, and someone I never thought I would be! I was reserved, tired, and I tried to stay as far away from the lime light as possible. Then something inside me changed. I started trying again, I started to talk to people again. And I have a few people to thank for that! I tried out for a solo in Choir, and got it, hands down. My voice matured and blossomed over the summer, and I hadn't tried to share my talents. People to this day are still telling me I am the most amazing, angelic singer that they have ever heard. There, at school, I felt that I was alone and unwanted. Here, almost half way done with my 3rd year, I know that people want me around.
Now, here I am in December, at the close of this year. It's been crazy! Things don't seem to be any different, but I am different. Looking back, I can see that I was afraid of who I was. I didn't know how much I meant to people. I was depressed, because I thought that I was the reason for everyone's problems. Now, I can see that I was totally, undeniably wrong. I am talented, smart, lovely, adorable, spunky, persistent, and I am hard working. I don't want o go back to the way I was. I want to remain strong, fight my battles as they arise, and I want to be able to help people when they need it, and be able to help in the best way that I can.
How different are you? Look back at your year, and see how far you've really come!
You are the most amazing person that you can be! Don't give up!
~Me
